1st Ultrasound

I was really nervous and stressed out about this day. I was so afraid I was going to be disappointed and find out we had to start over once again with the fertility treatments. On the drive I could just feel myself tensing up and my pulse racing. I've been trying not to be too stressed since it's not good for the pregnancy but I couldn't help it. I kept thinking "as long as I have my Kyler I'll be okay." By the time we got to Kansas City, I had Brett pretty stressed out too. We waited for almost an hour before it was time for the scan. As soon as we saw the screen though, relief set in. I don't even think we showed much excitement. We were just quiet and could finally breathe easier.

Today, at 6 weeks 2 days, we could see what looked like a diamond ring inside the black circle that was empty the last time the doctor had given me a scan. The band is the yolk sac which provides the baby with nutrients in the beginning. The baby is what looked like the diamond. We could see a little flicker of a heartbeat. The doctor showed us that the baby is in my left uterus. That was a big shock to us. My previous pregnancies were both in the right side so we didn't even know if it was possible for me to get pregnant on the left. Plus, the dominant follicles this cycle were on the right so even the doctor was surprised to find the baby on the left.

Once I found out the baby was on the left I started thinking about what that means for the pregnancy. On the plus side, we don't have to worry about the C-section scar or tissue. I am wondering if my OB will even let me try to deliver vaginally this time. On the negative, since this is the larger and more dominant cervix, there may be an increased risk of pre-term labor or cervical incompetence. Only time will tell. We decided it would be best to doctor with the same OB doctor I used with Kyler even though she is in Kansas City. She was extremely careful with our pregnancy, did lots of appointments and ultrasounds to make sure everything was going okay, and even had me see a perinatologist to make sure she hadn't missed anything. The drive will be uncomfortable in the last month or so of pregnancy but we feel it's best for the baby.

We are so extremely thankful to have made it this far. And now that we've seen our newest member of the family, we can't help but get attached and excited. There is still a long way to go to have a healthy baby so we will continue to pray and do everything possible keep our little one safe. But we know that it is ultimately out of our control. That's stressful for me but I think I have finally come to terms with that fact. I have another ultrasound in two weeks so hopefully we will see normal growth and development and I can be released to my OB. In the meantime, we are already throwing around baby names. I feel like that is going to be really hard to figure out this time around!