Myelle is a little over 2 1/2 months old now and has finally ceased fire (for the most part). I hate to verbalize or write it becasue I think I'm going to jinx it but her spitting up has really slowed down. Finally! It's been a few days since she covered a piece of furniture in spit-up. She still gets a little on her shirts here and there but not near the volume it was before. I have even been able to leave bibs off of her lately so you can actually see the adorable clothes she has been given. The wetness on her shirts is now half spit-up and half drool. (I never knew I would be so satisfied about drool!)
Unfortunately, this has not caused her to be the dream baby we somehow set our standards for. She still has her fussy times and in some ways they are becoming even more frustrating because I can no longer find a way to calm her at times. As far as I can tell, she just has gas built up that she's trying to get out and nothing consoles her. I try walking and bouncing while holding her tummy and giving her a paci (the thing that has always worked) and that just makes her more mad. I try to feed her and she screams about every 30 seconds. It's so frustrating that it brings me to tears becasue I don't know why I can't figure out how to calm her. I have never had that happen before with my kiddos. Nursing always helped as a last resort with both kids before now.
She is really challenging me as a mom. And I really hope that she isn't this challenging her whole life. I don't think I can handle a teenage version of this! I guess I should have expected this though because not much has been easy about this baby. She took a lot of work to conceive, came home scaring me by being a terrible sleeper and at first not gaining weight back as fast as they wanted, caused me some major pain nursing, spit up constantly and everywhere, and most recently I got mastitis (a nursing infection). I know I shouldn't compare siblings, but this was a rude awakening after Kyler. He was an abnormally easy baby. We knew that all along but we still were not prepared for anything other than an easy baby.
But... all that being said I HAVE NOT LOST SIGHT OF HOW BLESSED WE ARE and all the things that have gone right. In the end, we have a beautiful, healthy, and mostly happy baby girl. She's exactly what we had wanted even if she does cry more than we were ready for. She has really started "talking" to Brett and I; and her smiles and little voice just thrill us. I really think it's her way of expressing how in love with us she is. And it's hard to describe just how happy that makes us. Crying and all, we wouldn't trade our precious girl for anything in the world.
I know I will miss these baby stages but in some ways we cannot wait until she's a little older and can interact more with her big brother. He loves her so much and they already have such a strong bond. It's really amazing. Even with how tiny she is, Kyler considers her a friend and his side-kick. He often asks where she is and wants to know what's wrong with her when she's crying. Sometimes her crying will cause him to cry and when I ask what's wrong he says, "I don't like Myelle to cry." When he plays toys and reads books, he will identify pairs as Kyler and Myelle. This weekend when his grandparents were in town he pointed to Bert and Ernie and said that was Kyler and Myelle. It's so cute and I hope they are good friends and there for eachother the way I think they will be.
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I love hearing stories about Kyler as a big brother.
I would not say Landon was an easy baby for the first six months, but after that things got so much easier and he has been what I would consider an easy toddler. Landon had some of the same spit up and gas issues that Myelle has, but was never very difficult to calm down, which was a relief. It seems like everyone I talk to says their second kid was much more challenging, and it worries me sometimes about our next one. Hopefully her gas issues settle soon. Seems like thats the route of all the problems.
Sorry about your mastitis. That sucks. Breast feeding is much more difficult than anyone would expect it to be.
You guys have such a great family and these difficult times will be just a memory soon enough.
I think Ava wore a bib for the first 6 months of her life. She spit up all the time, small amounts though.
Sounds like it's been a little challenging the first couple months, hopefully things smooth out now!
Ouch! Hope the mastitis gets better quickly. I'm right down the street if ya ever need a little break ;)
Hang in there!! I appreciate your honesty - life is not always easy. I have been wondering how the change from 1-2 kiddos will go someday...
A friend of mine SWEARS that taking Lecithin capsules while nursing will heal/prevent mastitis... Check health food stores or even Wal-Mart. I never had any issues, but did take Lecithin on/off while nursing. (I wasn't very good about remembering...) Hope you're doing better now, but just in case, thought I'd share!
Hugs!!
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