End of Cycle 1

As suspected, yesterday's home pregnancy test was also negative. It is a little disappointing just because going through another treatment cycle is sort of a pain and we are busy. But getting pregnant in one cycle would be crazy, especially considering how we got so lucky with Kyler.

Overall, I am now feeling even more grounded and less optimistic about even being able to become pregnant again mostly due to the DOR (diminishing ovarian reserve) problem that last month's test results showed. I'm concerned that the eggs I'm producing are just not high enough quality to lead to a pregnancy. 

One way or another we will have another child. Hopefully it will be the old-fashioned way (with some help) but we may have to resort to doing a couple of IUI cycles if things don't work out the next cycle or two. Or if that doesn't work either we will probably start fostering babies - something we will eventually do anyway - and hopefully adopt. A baby is a baby to us no matter how he or she comes into our lives but obviously getting pregnant in the upcoming months is the least expensive (for us due to my amazing insurance) and fastest way.

Right now I am just enjoying the baby I already have. I feel so incredibly blessed to have him, knowing that he was a miracle and in a different time we wouldn't even have had the opportunity to get infertility treatments. I continue to feel very guilty asking/praying/hoping/trying for another one when I personally know at least a handful of people who are giving all they've got to have one child and read about countless others facing infertility. I've been there and know how it feels to think that you may never have a child. I knew that for about 6 years before we got pregnant. All I can do is pray that everyone is able to experience the love and happiness that we have been blessed with.

The End (of Cycle 1)